THOUGHTS BEFORE AFRICA

30 January 1999

6:18 AM:  Good Morning Lord.  This is me, john, one of Your dear ones.  Here I am.  This is me.  I am looking out, through my eyes.  I am listening through my ears.  I am feeling, living through my body.  I am thinking through my brain.  Mine is a big body, over 300 pounds.  I feel well, though ponderous.  And, I am conscious of You.  In this early morning, when there is a fog that is creating a mystical world outside, beneath the setting full moon, of white frosty trees and all.  And me beneath the feather covers, thinking about the African trip, and You.

This trip once again, more than ever, finds me thinking about danger, imprisonment, death.  I’m hearing, more and more, about kidnappers, Moslem hideosities, robbers and killers, and corrupt government, etc.  I am somewhat reluctant to take Joshua into this trip, yet, somehow I have no fear, and, I do have trust, and confidence that we, that is, both Joshua and I, will return home safely and sound, with reports of protection and exciting adventure.

I am asking You for some favours, Lord.  Lord, God of All of the Universe.  Creator King of Everything.  Magnificent Christ.  Lovely Lord.  Precious Holy Spirit.  Papa.  Friend. 

I am asking that we return safely.

I am asking You for many more years with Karen and the family.

I am asking You for outward “success” with the ministry and the Farm - but it must be “success” by Your standards.

I am asking You for the privilege of teaching the Gospel of the Kingdom for many years to come.

I am still expecting to walk in the glory that I have preached about.

I am asking and expecting to see lovely completed buildings on this property, and, outreach to many thousands, millions.

I am asking that You privilege us to minister, repeatedly to a sea of faces, drawn by You and Your glory, faces, reaching to the horizon.

I am asking that You, as You have promised, allow me to be used by You, to heal the sick, all of them, to raise the dead, to still storms, to walk on water, to travel from place to place in this world with the speed of thought, ministering to millions of people, seeing millions and millions and millions of people saved, filled with You, learning the King’s Greatest Secret, the deep things of You, perfected in You, and to see thousands of churches established, many thousands of ministries trained and commissioned, etc.  I am asking to be a vital part of the end-time army of the earth, working together with You to reap the Harvest of the Ages, in seeing the Establishment of the Kingdom of God here on earth, in seeing the completion of the preaching of the Gospel of the Kingdom to the ends of the earth.

Like John of Old, I would like to be known as an apostle of love.  I would like to grow old, and healthy, with Karen, old and healthy, having seen the marriages of all of my children and the maturing of many  grandchildren.

I am asking that You allow me to see and participate in being a channel of Your Power, to see new legs, new arms, new eyes, new teeth, new organs, new breasts, new body parts, new bodies, new hair, total healings, multitudes of creative miracles, on many people’s bodies, cancers healed, including Pat, Dianne Rich, etc.  I am asking for Papa Cady’s healing, and, that of Lyle Payne.  I am asking to see supernatural provision for many people, for many years.  I am asking to be a channel of miracle judgement on Your enemies that refuse to bow to You.

I am asking that You never allow me to backslide, or become arrogant, or go into heresy.  I do not want to ever be wrong in judging people, but to love them with Your love, including Richard Fike and Michael Rood, and the Blodgetts.  I want to always love everyone with Your love, and to see everyone through Your eyes.  I would like to see multitudes and multitudes and multitudes of people come into Your Secret and Your Glory.  And, in this life, I want to walk in Your Glory, and live in Your Glory, behold Your Glory, reflect and be a channel of Your Life and Your Glory.  I ask and believe for, and I claim as mine, in practical, experiential, gut-level reality, ALL of the living words and works that You have ordained for me to do and speak, from before the foundation of the World.  I know that sin, or shame, or failure or defeat is NOT in Your plan for me or us.  I believe that great fruitfulness, and fulfillment, and accomplishment is all in Your perfect will and plan for me and us.  I firmly believe that all that I am asking for, is within Your perfect will for me.

However, once again, I formally bow to You, and to Your Awesomeness - to Your Mysterious Majesty, to Your Inscrutable Greatness, to Your Depths of Love - to You.  I bow before Your Sweet Will.  I humbly demand that You have Your perfect way with me.  You said and promised Lord, that if we ask anything according to Your will, that Your hear us, and that thus, we HAVE the petitions that we have asked of Thee.  Therefore, I am asking that You have Your perfect way with me, whatever that means, even if Your perfect will for me would be pain and suffering, and disappointment and the loss and failure of all that I hope for or hold dear.  By Your Great Grace, “NONE of these things move me.” Though I walk through the Valley of the Shadow of Death, I will fear no evil.  Though I make my bed in hell, behold, Thou art there.   But, I am NOT believing for death and hell.  I am believing for life and light and immortality and for great success in You.

Please, Papa:  Let me live to see the Goodness of Yahweh in the Land of the Living.  Please allow me to see the development of this land, into a great ministry center, that is greatly used of You to train and send an army of dear ones to reap the harvest of the Ages. To be used of You in the perfecting of Your Bride and the building and perfecting and the maturing of Your Church.  Please let many books, of poetry, and music, and the book on the Church, etc., along with our other books, be used to bless hundreds of millions of people, near and far.

But, once again, I bow to Your perfect will, what ever this means.  I welcome the adventures of the days ahead, with You - what ever that means.  I love You Papa Yahweh.  I trust You.  I trust You to keep me, and Karen and Joshua and Joseph and Michelle and Kari and Dawn Joy and their spouses, and each of the Grandchildren, as the apple of Your eye, held securely in Your long strong loving arms, with our names written on Your hand, while seated on Your lap. 

I love You Lord.  I trust You.  I have hope.  Amen - - - - - - -

Your friend, me, John        7:21 AM